Septiembre

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

September

• Color- This is not a particularly light and fluffy color, but I have been wearing a lot of black lately. It might be to reflect my mood, or it might be because it is slimming, but black has definitely been the color this month. Don't get me wrong, I have not been Eeyor-ing it up lately, I have just been rather stressed, as I mentioned last post. Black also goes with most everything, so on mornings when I am too tired to think of anything else, I go for the standard.
• Book- Ha Ha Ha...that is a funny concept...as if I have time to read a book! But there is one thing... my secondary thesis advisor gave me a mini book called From St. Isaac The Syrian to Dostoevsky. As my Dostoevsky obsession comes from her, she thought it fit to bestow this gem into my care for a while as I work on my thesis. I have not opened it up yet but it is there waiting for when I am truly in the depths of thesis despair and need to be reminded why in hell on earth I picked this topic. Lately, Dostoevsky and I have been having some domestic disputes and I'm worried it will turn into an all out war. So this point stands ready, waiting for the right moment to intervene before chaos ensues.
• Song- Easily and unquestionably and absolutely the song this month (and probably for the rest of the semester) is "Wake Me Up" by Avicii. I first heard this song over the summer, before everyone else did of course, and it spoke to my soul. I listened to it more and more and realized that this song literally tells my life story as it currently stands as a senior in college. It is the primordial explanation for all the feelings I feel, and simultaneously, it is a great song to just get up and dance to. When I am stressed, I listen to this song. When I am happy and motivated, I listen to this song. Here it is, and I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do: Wake Me UP.

                                                                      Sincerely and Cordially,
                                                                                      Me

PS- I wish that I could stay forever this young...

The Crazies

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

      It has almost been two months since my last post. TWO months. Usually when I go a long time without writing I apologize to you all, my readers. But this time, I'm not going to say anything other than this: Life is crazy and this summer was crazy and so far, this semester at school is crazy. Blogging has been my last priority, and so, I just didn't do it. Now to move on.

      I have been in school for over a month now. One month done, less than three to go. In less than three months I am going to be done my college career. Forever. Let's think about this for a minute because it's the only thing I've been thinking about. I literally cannot comprehend the thought of graduating college so soon. Yes, it was my choice to graduate early, but the thought is still foreign to me. Most days, I still feel like a twelve year old. Not a twelve year old stuck in a twenty-one year olds body. Nono. Just twelve. And twelve year olds have no business graduating college. None.At.All.

      The hard thing is (among a zillion other things), everyone keeps asking what I am going to when I finish. Where are you going to go? What are you going to do? Are you going to work? Grad school? Travel? My answer these days has been a mere "uhhh...HAHA....uhhhh...I'll let you know when I know?"  I wish I knew. I really, really, really, really wish I knew. But I don't. And I am having a hard time accepting the reality of the situation at hand.

      I'll be honest, I do have ONE plan in mind. I am so freaking excited to read whatever the heck I want to. As I've mentioned multiple times before, I am working on my senior thesis this semester. I've been working on it all summer and will be for the next three months. Don't get me wrong, I love my topic and all, but I am SO SICK of reading scholarly articles and journals and annotating every stinking thing I read. I am an English major because I like to READ. READDDD. Not annotate. Not analyze. I like the stories, not the metaphors. I don't want to read between the lines, I want to enjoy the lines I'm reading.

      So reader, you want to know what I'm going to do when I graduate? I am going to read all the books on my shelves that I have not had time to read as an English major. I am going to re-read all of my favorite books. And you know what? I am going to enjoy every second of it. I cannot wait. It is going to be so great reading for fun again and not having to worry about being quizzed or picking out quotes from it to write a 15 page paper. It is going to be a dream come true.

                                                       Sincerely,
                                                               Me